How do we go about doing this work without
becoming discouraged by the enormity of the task? Unless we can find a way to
practice with joyfulness, working with our difficulties rather than against,
them, practice will be an experience of frustration and disappointment. Unless we can find a way to
enjoy what we are doing right now, yoga practice will become a negative time,
and ultimately we'll develop a strong resistance even to stepping onto
the mat.
A story may help you to understand what I mean.
Many years ago I moved into a derelict house. The back door was nailed shut and
had not been opened for fifteen years; once pried open it revealed a six-foot
wall of seemingly impenetrable blackberry bushes, vines, and crabgrass. I wanted
a garden. For many months I looked in despair through the window of the back
door. The task seemed too large and. too difficult. Then I decided upon a
strategy that my mind could grasp. I decided that I would divide the project
into four-foot increments. Every week I would
clear a four-foot patch of garden. The backyard was sixty-five feet long! As I
would begin to dig and root, cutting and pulling my tiny patch, I resolved that
I would focus my attention only on the four-foot patch. I would not even look at
the other sixty-one feet of garden left to clear. Within minutes of beginning I
would become completely absorbed in the insects, the tiny plants uncovered, and
the pleasure of digging my hands into the brown earth. Each four-foot patch took
about three hours because the crabgrass had to be dug out completely and
the earth was rock hard. But three hours a
week was an easily manageable commitment. When I was finished with the patch, I
would step back and admire my good work, never allowing myself to consider the
chaotic mess left remaining. How wonderful it looked! Each four-foot patch was a
unique wonder. Pathways buried two feet under emerged. A lawn mower, enveloped
by grass (proof of the law of karma), was discovered. Not only was the task
challenging, it became an adventure, and I eagerly anticipated what I might find
each week. Within a year I had a beautiful lawn, an herb garden, and a patch of
flowers to enjoy. But, more important, I enjoyed the process of transforming an
inhospitable patch of ground into an urban paradise.
When you begin to practice, you may feel very
bound in your body and mind, not unlike the densely woven crabgrass of my
garden. You can choose to fight with yourself, pulling and tugging on yourself
as a way to force your own metamorphosis. If you've ever encountered a weed with
deep roots, you know the futility of pulling at the stem knowing full well some
digging is in order! There's a moment when you
can cheerfully accept the task and set to it with full vigor, or turn sour and
miserable in the face of such work. There's a moment when you can resign
yourself to the patient work ahead or give in to the impulse to pull on the stem
before the ground has been dug deep enough. The first step is accepting that
some deep work needs to be done and then deciding to make this a positive,
uplifting experience.